YAY!!! She's back!!!

Glad to see you get back on the horse, MB :) I have to admit that I really missed you, but now I won't have to miss you no more because you are back for sure right?? Lol Anyways the book you mentioned sounds good. Maybe you can show it to me on our dinner date ;) And I completely understand about gaining and not losing.  A couple of weeks ago I went from 137.8 to 138.7, GAINING a pound rather than losing.  Which, of course, super bummed me out.  This week, I came in at 137.0 (a loss of 1.2 from last week).  I am still having a hard time working in exercise into my routine, but I have been eating better.  Well, maybe not BETTER, but for sure less Lol Something that helps is flossing and brushing an hour or 2 before bed, that way I won't be tempted to snack late, which has become a big problem for me seeing as how I don't get off of work til 8:30 pm everyday.  But I'm definitely trying to work on it :)

So we have less than 2 weeks before our next monthly weigh in.  I really, REALLY need to be 135 or I swear I'ma lose it lol  I have to lose 2 more lbs to meet the goal.  Lets make it happen ;)

weigh in

Allright my weekly weigh in I'm back to 191 so no gain which is good but gotta get back on track didn't take a pic cause i already have one with 191 so i just didn't feel like taking another one blah. Im not happy about it but I can't be upset about it because its no ones fault but my own lets move it!

I'm Back

Allright, Allright! I shall admit it...I have been some what lost these past few weeks. From Valentines Day to not feeling it with the BF to just plain being lazy. I admit it! First step to getting back on track is admitting that you went off of it right? Looonnnggg story short I lost 11 lbs since I first began this whole journey when I first started I weighed 202 and my monthly weigh in I weighed 191. Woot Woot!! Now on to my gain. This past week I have gained .6 lbs SOB! I know I know. Small gain but its those small things that make you feel like shit. Those . 6 lbs made me want to eat a fucken pan of brownies! Bible! But yesterday and today I have been doing great I just went to the gym and worked my ass off. I wanted to apologize to JJ bc i haven't been harassing her on Facebook or even harassing her at all about our weight loss journey. I just felt that lately I have been in a slump and I wasn't sure how to get out of it. I was just plain depressed! But I am back and more ready then ever!! So what is a post without some healthy tips? well it ain't a post lmao. SO i have been reading the book The Binge Eating and Compulsive Overeating Workbook and let me tell you it is AMAZING. Now I am not a crazy binge eater perse but I do binge eat ever so often. Anyways the book offers you a ton of worksheets and methods that will help you look at what you are eating and why are you eating. For example I have a MASSIVE problem of eating when  I am bored. Yea i could have just had dinner an hour ago but if I'm bored the fucken snickers is heading into my mouth. In the book they help you understand why you do that, now it doesn't just help you understand by simply telling you. It has you write down why you are hungry and it helps you learn to differentiate the different states of "hunger." Absolutely love love this book. It also provides you with a meal plan and it gives you a worksheet that helps you assess how hungry you are. You write down what you ate and how full you felt. I recommend this book to anyone! Allright as far as the monthly weigh in and all that good stuff I will begin with the weekly tomorrow and hope that I can post my monthly by this weekend much love!!!

JJ: Miss you MB!!

Yes, that pretty much sums it all.  I miss you.  And I feel like all of this has taken a back seat to everything else that is going on in your life.  But don't forget (like you've told me countless times) that YOU come first.  Losing weight is something that we both desperately want and need, and because of that, it is sometimes easier to put it off.  Either because of a fear of failure or because we think there are other things that are more important.  But we can't let the things that happen in our lives become excuses.  WE ARE GOING TO LOSE THE WEIGHT.  NO EXCUSES.  Now, I'm usually not a fan of tough love (yes, I admit it, I am a major pussy lol). But I know that is a tactic that is greatly embraced by our dearest MB.  So here goes:  MB, you better get your ass back in gear.  Doing a blog was YOUR idea, so I better start seeing some posts on here ASAP!! If you don't want to bombard my FB with inspirational posts anymore, then that's fine.  But you cannot neglect our blog, which is exactly what you have been doing.  It's been WEEKS since your last post and that is completely unacceptable.  Weekly posts on Fridays was your idea.  Posting tips and inspirational stuff was also YOUR idea.  And I refuse to let this phase out.  We will finish this, and we will do with DEDICATION and PERSEVERANCE.  I love you MB, and I just want to push you to be your best just like you have pushed me.  Hope you're not upset with me.  I meant all of what I said, although in my head I picture it being a little comical too (I hope that came across lol).

ANYWAYS,  so this Friday (2/17) was yet another weekly weigh in.  I came in at 138.2 lbs.  I hate that I gained rather than lost earlier this month, but I refuse to let that bring me down.  To keep me motivated and in check, I have decided to establish weekly goals as well.  The original goal was to be at 135 by our next monthly weigh in (March 8th), so that means I a little bit over 2 weeks to lose 3.2 lbs.  That's about 1.6 lbs each week.  I think I can do better.  I really, really, REALLY want to weigh in at LESS than 135.  Even if it's only 134.999999999. Lol I know it sounds stupid, but for some reason exceeding my goal, even if its by 0.000000001 of a pound, sounds like such an accomplishment to be.  I think it  might have something to do with how well I did my first month.

So confession time: I have not been working out.  Or eating very healthy for that matter.  I don't know what it is that always seems to steer me from making the right decisions.  Anywho, I really want to get back on track this week.  I know it may seem like I say that A LOT, and the truth is, I do.  I'll do fine for a few days and then I'll mess up.  But I'm tired of feeling guilty and like a failure.  I think the important part is to acknowledge the mistake and then move on.  That is the only way to conquer the beast also known as FATNESS.  Because for every time I mess up or fail, I will keep on trying.  I realize that one of my biggest motivators in my ego.  I know that might sound weird, but in all honesty, there is nothing like someone compliment you on your good you look or even better, on how much weight you've lost.  I live for that shit Lol

So starting today, I will work out every day.  Even if it's just one of those super quick workouts.  Like literally 4 minutes.  Because SOMETHING is ALWAYS better than NOTHING.  This here is a workout plan that MB posted on her FB and that I promptly snagged Lol It's a 14 day weight loss plan that involves cardio and strength training.  That one is a tad bit lengthier, so for those of us who are always on the go, here is a SUPER short workout that always leaves me breathless.  Hope you enjoy!! :)

JJ The Dress: Take 2

Ok, this one is going to be a quickie (unlike the last post lol)

I was finally able to get the dress from MB's.  So here is a pic:

Personally, I don't notice any difference from the last time I tried this on a little over a month ago.  And to be quite honest, I'm a little disappointed that the zipper didn't go higher, but oh well.  Here's to next month :)

JJ MONTHLY Weigh In #1

So here it is, the FIRST monthly weigh in.  That's right, it has officially been one month since MB and I embarked on this perilous journey we like to call "losing weight." Lol  And so far, so good.  I know there have been some bumps along the road, but the point is that we have NOT given up and that we continue to pursue our dream of being THINNER, LIGHTER, HEALTHIER, AND HAPPIER :)

Today I weighed in at 137.6.  I started at 146.4, making my total weight loss thus far *drum roll* 8.8 lbs!! Lol  Granted, I've been sick the last couple of days, but a loss is a loss, right MB? Lol  If we look back to my first post, my expected weight for February 8th was 140.  So, I am happy to say that I have far exceeded my expectations.  Never in a million years would I picture myself weighing less than 140.  Especially since THIS TIME LAST YEAR I weighed about 158.6.  That's over 20 lbs heavier!! Wow, that is crazy!! So happy that  I am finally on the right track.  Can't wait to meet the next goals I have set for myself.  According to my first post , the goal for March 8th is 135.  I don't plan on changing that, although I am UNOFFICIALLY setting my own personal goal of 132, meaning that I would need to lose about 5.6 lbs in a month.  That seems doable, right? Lol

K, so here are this month's measurements.  I wish MB were here to help, but unforutantely she is too busy for moi Lol Jk  I love you hard work, definitely something I admire about you.  And on a side note, I have to admit that none of this would have been possible if it hadn't been for MB.  She kept me going through both positive reinforcement and tough love.  And while there were times that I thought she was being too mean (yes, I admit it, I'm a bit of a pussy Lol), in the end, she was always there for me when I needed her most.  I know this sound super sappy, but I truly do appreciate all that's she's done for me.  Not only is she a great coach, motivator, supporter, cheerleader, nutritionist (lol), and even a doctor at time, but she is also an AMAZING friend. Love you MB! <3

ANYWAYS, where was I? Oh, yeah, my measurements Lol

• Bust: 41 (-1 inch)
• Waist: 33 (-3 inches)
• Abdomen: 35 (-3 inches)
• Hips: 37.5 (-3.5 inches)
• Thighs: [L] 17 (-1 inch), [R] 18 (-1 inch)*
• Calves: [L] 12.5 (- 1 inch), [R] 12.5 (- 1.5 inches)
• Arms: [L] 10.5 (- 0.5 inches), [R] 10.5 (- 0.5 inches)
• WEIGHT: 137.6
• Height: 5'1
• Age: 22
• BMI: 26 (- 1.7)

Wow, no idea!! I've literally lost inches!! Holy shit!!  There must be some sort of mistake.  I probably did this wrong. See, this is why I need you here MB Lol

Ok, so to wrap this up, I am saddened to say that there will be no dress picture.  My dumbass left at MB's house, who lives 45 minutes away... But instead, I am HAPPY to say that I found my pair of jeans, the ones that I want to be able to fit into by the end of this whole ordeal.  These, unlike MB's, were never mine.  They are a pair that my mom bought for God knows who, but never actually gave them away.  So I found them and thought they were perfect for this.  They are a size 5, which I used to be able to fit into back in high school (I can currently COMFORTABLY fit into a size 9.  7's are usually a tight fit.)  Here are the pics:

Just so you know, these literally took me like 5 minutes to put on, no joke.  I could barely get them over my fat thighs Lol

*Still unsymmetrical! Lol

JJ Weigh In

LOVE the positive attitude MB!! And the "I'm in charge" attitude and the "I'm gonna kick ass" attitude Lol You truly are an inspiration :)  And you're absolutely right, there is no point in being too hard on ourselves.  Yeah, it's not ok to NOT exercise and eat healthy, but everyone makes mistakes.  And I am starting to realize that every mistake made is an opportunity to learn and improve ourselves.

So for this weigh in, I came in at 138.8, which means a weight loss of 1.2 lbs.  This totals 7.8 lbs lost since we started this blog almost a month ago.  However, this doesn't really feel like a total win for me.  The reason?  I didn't really follow protocol when weighing myself Lol  I usually weigh myself in whatever I have on, which is usually jeans, sweater, shirt, etc.  But today I was just in my undies and undershirt.  So in a way, it kinda feels like I cheated a bit Lol  I know, I know.  This does not make the most accurate reading, but what's done is done.  From now I am making a promise to always weigh in in my undies.  That way there is no confusion or misunderstanding Lol Sorry!!

On a more positive note, I am proud to say that I have been eating somewhat better.  I finally went grocery shopping after not going in what felt like weeks.  I've been eating salads these last couple of days and most importantly, I haven't had any fast food or even gone out to eat since Tuesday.  I know it may not seem like a long time ago, but compared to how I'd been doing the week before, it is a BIG improvement Lol  And I also worked out this week.  Yes, it was only like twice, but I figure 2 is better than 0 right?? Lol  I did a video I found on youtube and today I played basketball with the kids from work and with some of my coworkers.  And let me tell you, I was huffing and puffing like no other!! Lol

This is a pretty accurate representation of me height compared to that of my coworkers.  I'm sure MB can vouch for that Lol

Mb weigh in

Allright guys I have had a hellish week! Bible! I have had this long list of things to do and when one thing went wrong it seemed like the next 500 things went wrong. I worked out 0 days this week, yea 0! WTF i realized yesterday that I can't get down on myself because then I ruin my whole workout, eating, and stress levels go through the roof! All these things that got in my way are all petty simple things that could have been fixed but i chose (key word) to let it affect how I live my life. That is def not how i want to be living I don't want to be a negative nancy. I can remember telling JJ to not be one and here I am bitching and moaning all week about this and that! Well no more i tell February will be MY month and i will kick ass! On a bright side I lost .6 lbs yea that is like almost a lb. lol I refuse to let it bring me down because you know what I lost and hint hint JJ lost as well yay so we are both OFFCIALLY LOSERS (: My goal for next week is to bust my ass and workout everyday if possible at least for 10mts. Also make better food choices I have not been eating horrible but I have not been eating well, so gotta get back on the salad band wagon (: here is to a great week starting TODAY (: